Wow… I can’t beleive I just did that!

 I was walking back to my seat hands shaking, legs heavy as concrete, heart racing. It reminded me of exactly how I felt just moments before jumping out of a plane two years ago. I just gave a speech to 15 of my classmates sharing extremely intimate details of my life. I had six minutes to convey my story to them and that is exactly what I did. If there is something I am good at, it is using vividly descriptive words to paint an elaborate scene to make the person listening believe they were there too.

 “Alright so we are all dealt our own hand of shit that we have to deal with in life. “ It was the perfect way to start it off. I had broken the Imageice and gotten them to laugh. “You have had yours and I have had mine. While what you have gone through, might be different from mine, whatever it is has held you back from having exactly what you want in life. I share this with you today so that you can see that whatever it is that you think has such a hold on you doesn’t have to. You can have exactly what you want in life.”

As I spoke I made eye contact around the room. There was not a sound from anyone as their eyes were fixated on me and slightly leaning forward in their seats hanging on for each detail I would soon reveal. It was beyond empowering as my voice brought the words on paper to life. The six minutes came to an end as I left my past on the stage. I had just shared with them the first time I had a panic attack. For a very long time I struggled with depression. I thought it had this consuming hold on me that I would never be able to break free from. I thought I would have to live life by its’ terms just waiting for when it would strike next. I always saw happiness as a temporary thing too afraid to fully enjoy it because I was so scared of losing it again. I was living out of fear. No more though. Through my studies on behavior modification I have learned that we do certain behaviors because they serve us in someway. I never saw it like that before. I had always put myself in the victim position, not willing to look at the role I played in it. So yes, while it may have served me in the past it no longer serves me today. While we all have our ups and downs naturally, I choose to no longer fall into those patterns of the past.

As I walked back to my seat, I felt revived. Before my speech I walked up there scared. I was second-guessing if I should really say what I came to say. Should I take the leap and just see what happens?

Well I jumped after all and it was spectacular.

Whatever is holding you back, whether it is something from the past or the present, I invite you to let it go. Write it down and burn it. Share it with a group of close friends or in my case a group of complete strangers. Notice the sensations that arise in your body: fast heart beat, shallow breathing, sweating, etc. Stay with the physical sensations and before you know it they will start to lesson. If you stay in the presence of your body, it takes away the power of your thoughts. Our mind is a very powerful thing and can make any experience seem much worse than it actually is.

So let it go. Yes, just like that.

If you are ready to let it go you will. If you are not yet ready to, ask yourself, “How are these negative thoughts serving me in this moment?”

Each and everyone of you inspire me everyday to fully embrace my beautiful imperfections. My hope is that little by little you are able to see the beauty in yours as well.

Peace + love,

S

It’s 2014… lets take the leap already!

Every year we say we are going to do this and going to do that and the majority of the time we don’t. I invite you to take the leap (figuratively speaking) and leave your fears behind you in the plane. Image

Now if your not the type of person that wants to jump out of a plane like myself, believe me I know most people would not jump out a perfectly good plane, but do something that scares you and gives you that wonderful butterfly feeling in your gut. This could include asking for that promotion at work, taking a spontaneous vacation, singing loudly somewhere other than your shower. Whatever it is for you, I encourage you to feel the fear and do it anyway.

Your life is here to live for you and you only. Too much of the time, myself included, we let others opinions on what is the “right” thing to do get in the way of what is truly right for us. The best thing I Imageknow to do in these situations is to get another perspective. Do your best to remove yourself from the situation and get a birds eye view of everything that is going on. That is such a beautiful way to see the whole picture and get clarity on what your next best move is for YOU.

Take a look at what has possibly held you back in the past and ask yourself if it is still holding you back today. If it still presents itself, is this something that you can change or let go of? When we let go of fear, doubt, or whatever it is holding you back and we just act first, well this is where we can truly surprise ourselves of what magnificent things we are capable of.

Last but not least I would like to leave you with this to think on.ImageFollow your arrow and you will never be steered wrong.

-S

Fear is a Choice

I have to be honest with you. Lately, I have been allowing fear to take over my life and paralyze me (figuratively speaking of course). I Imagehave found that fear for me presents itself as seemingly important things like: checking my email, updating social media websites, the ever ongoing ‘research’ into something without ever acting upon said research, texting, school work, working out, TV and the list just keeps going. I focus on these rudimentary steps thinking that I am making some form of progress forward. When in fact I am really that hamster running in place on a wheel. I feel like I am doing some serious work, since I am constantly tired, my schedule is always full, and I make excuses of why I am too busy to be hanging out with friends.

What it boils down to is that, I am fearful of truly making progress forward. Why? This could come with massive success that I am not prepared for, or it could just confirm my doubts by being an enormous failure. Regardless either option seems too ‘risky’ or so that evil voice in my mind tells me.

So why am I sharing this all with you?

We all feel fear in some form or fashion. Maybe it is in aspiring career decisions like mine, taking charge of your health, moving out on your own, or asking out the person that has caught your eye. However, today in class my teacher shared this quote with us,

“Fear is not real. It is a product of thoughts you create. Do not misunderstand me. Danger is very real. But fear is a choice.” –Will Smith

 I guess I had just never thought of it like that. Fear is a choice. Yes we may feel it from time to time, but that does not mean that we have to let it paralyze us. It is a fleeting feeling that we can choose to let stay or to tell it to keep moving. Today, I decided to act upon this quote. I was tired of thinking of all the things that I wanted 

to do, but not acting on them due to the infamous ‘what if’ question. I cannot remember the last time I have been this productive and happy with myself for acting on what I want. When you decide to release fear you have the choice of freedom.

You’ll be amazed at the things you can achieve when you aren’t afraid to act. Ever heard the question,

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If you never have, or it has just been a while take a few minutes to think about it. My whole point behind this article is for you to recognize where fear presents itself in your life currently. Through doing this you will now have the choice to release it and choose freedom instead. Take a deep breath, release your fears, and now go out and conquer the world!

For it is with you that the world has a chance to be truly magnificent.

-S